Life

I cant beleive that it is already 2 months into the new year, i mean im almost done with my first year of highschool. I had originally planned to keep you all posted about how things were going but that never did happen. Im sorry. I do beleive with the turn of another school year I have learned alot more about myself and the people that surround me. Over the last year I have lost more friends than I have gained, but thats ok. I learned that in life things arnt always going to go the way you want them too. Especially in highschool. By the time you graduate you will probably not be friends with the same people that you were the beggining of your freshman year. Its not always a matter of you lost friends due to fights. In some cases there is just nothing you can do. People grow apart, it just means that your paths were only meant to cross for so long. I've also learned that you cant let the small things get to you. If you worry about every little thing somebody says about you, or what people do to you, you are just going to end up spending all of your time upset. Its not worth it. It may feel terrible at the time but you will find people that like you for you. True friends, the ones that wont walk away just because you made a decision that they didnt like or because they heard a rumor about you that wasnt even true. High school is supposed to be the time of your life. There is no reason to worry. Things will get better even if they seem like they never will. Its the time where you are supposed to be shaping yourself as a person. Focus on yourself for awhile. Try to figure out what you want to do in your life. But most of all, have fun. So all in all, highschool has been great. Yes, some of the friends I have lost i do wish i was still friends with. But the loss of them gave me more room for the wonderful friends I have now. I wish them the best in whatever they want to do in life. As I have been pondering all of this I have realized something. Im not here to hate anyone, I dont have the right. I have made more than my fair share of mistakes, it happens. I dont have to live my life for anyone but me. I only have this one shot, so I have to make the most of everything I can.

Thats what scares me the most

Are there times where you just wish you could dissapear for awhile? Thats how my life is basically all the time. I know people warned me that high school would be way different than everything else, but this is extreme. Its like a completly different world and most of the time i have no clue what to do while stuck in it. My life isnt all that bad if you count out the fact that I have lost several of my friends for the simple fact that they dont like what i am doing with my life, but that is their problem, not mine. I am very grateful for the few friends that have stuck with me through everything, the others obviously didnt care. My life is full of the normal highschool nonsense. Homework that wont ever matter, teachers that hate me, preppy kids with attitudes from hell. Things that are in ever highschool everywhere. I know by no means am i the only person who has ever hated highschool, there have been millions before me and there will be millions after me. There are few things in life that i even look forward to anymore. i used to want to go to school, i used to want to hang out with my friends on the weekends, i dont anymore. I dont know whats wrong with me, and thats what scares me the most.

Grahm&&98.76*

So last night I was talking on the phone with Jordyn, its like a nightly thing, and I realized that she has an alter ego. Her alter ego is a british man named Grahm. Grahm is the sane half of Jordyn. =) I have to say that I am insanly jealous of her british man-ness. Ok, I lied, im not jealous. Not at all. I dont want an alter ego, that might scare me.
Last night I wanted, for some weird reason, to know what temerature my tummy was. Long story dont ask. Jordyn determined that my tummy is 98.76 degrees. Ferenheight.
So I hate this. I have to pack to move. and i dont have much packed even though we have to move in like 12 days. Mhm. So like if you want to help me pack just like comment and tell me because I could use all the help I can get. If you volenteer then thank you!

Epic Failure, Kitties, and Dino Dog

So I fail. Like epically (epicaly?)-nvm. I should be packing for the move at the moment but as you probably already guessed, im not packing =0 We have to be out of this house and into our new one by the 31st which is 14 days away! 14 days and I am no-where close to being done.
I think something epic may have just happened uptown because I keep hearing all sorts of sirens going towards market st., I also heard a firetruck. =0 I really hope this isnt a repeat of the Hadley's incident cause that was just sad.
So, band camp....it is in like 10 days and I never got my music, which worries me. But im in pit, which I am thankful for because we are inside the majority of the time and not outside sweating our asses off. I kinda hope they make us spend alot of time outside though because outside is wonderful, and I would feel horrible if we spent all the time inside while the majority of my non-percussion and some percussion friends are stuck outside.
Because of the move I am finally getting pets! It has been like 3 years since I have had a pet and I am ecstatic. I have already picked out 2 kitties. They are adorable! I dont like their names though, the little girls name is Kiki and her brothers name is Tiki. If they dont respond well to those names then im going to change them, but Idk what to change their names too. I like Aadin and Anna. If you have suggestions comment and tell me them.
I have to wait to get my puppy though. I have to wait all the way until October, thats alot of waiting. Im not sure if I like it. When I do get me a puppy I know what kind I would love to have even though I cant get it because my mom says it will get too big. If I had my way I would get a Rottweiler Mastiff mix. He would be like a dinosaur, but prolly not as cool. If I got that do I would totally teach it to eat peoples faces, but only the faces of people that I dont like. If I know you, and I like you, then dont worry I wont let my giant dinosaur dog eat your face. I promise.
O! I almost forgot, I owe Jordyn Marie a thank you for making my wonderful banner! I love it! Thank you Jordyn!

Panic at the disco died. =0 Its a sad sad day in the music world, o and i guess the micheal jackson thing is pritty sad too

Spring Break,Love&&Stripping

My school had this like reward party thing for all the students who were there for the states very unpleasent standardised testing. We had to watch our teachers in this like dance contest which so was NOT a reward. It was uber creepy. But then we got like 2 hours to be outside, it was supposed to be like a dance. but mostly people just stood around and talked. So I was standing around with all of my friends and we were goofing around and doing things of that nature. This kid we all know is like a super amazing dancer, im noting even kidding. He would rock your sox. He had like really long hair, like down to his shoulders. He cut it all off!!!! We didnt even recognize him. Then this Wonderfully amazing guy, lets call him.....Bert....there is a reason for it I swear. Well he is like talking and this song comes on and he is all like wow this is such a whorish song. and to prove his point he started stripping. Unfortunatly he stopped after his jacket. So then bert starts talking again and then begins to look at our other friend with like this longing look on his face which shocks none of us because we all know he is in love with her. But what Bert doesnt know is that I do beleive that im in love with him. So watching him look at her like that pritty much like stabbed me in the heart....it hurt.
Friday, which was the first official day of spring break, was not as bad. I pritty much spent the entire day walking around town with my friend kac. Then firday night we found out there was a dance and so me and kac dragged our friend jordyn along because we thought it would b fun. It wasnt. We ended up sitting with this guy we knew and like dancing to maybe 5 songs. During the dance Jordyn was all like let me see ur phone.I handed it over because she is Jordyn and she wasnt gonna do anything to it. Because she knows that i had txt bert earlier that day and he never responded to me because i had her tell him i really was sick of constantly hearing about the girl he likes, she txt him. She was all like hey this is jordyn. And what do ya know like a minute later he freakin txt her back...see told ya he was mad at me. Well i really wanted to just break down and cry right there but i didnt because we were sitting with friends and i hate crying in front of people. But its not even that im mad that he answered to her its that i dont know what i did to him that he wont even talk to me. I really do hate being shut out by the people i love. I got over all of that and we all ended up at this place that is across the street where we all got drinks and such. it ended ok tho, jordyns drink tasted like it had vodka in it...i wonder how she got them to put that in there??? Me and jordyn ended up each putting a dollar down a guys pants...in totaly inncocence i swear. Because he like took his button down shirt off all stripper like. Gosh i know alot of guys that like to strip. =)
Well im leaving this blog post as it is and am fighting myself to not erase every word on the page. Bye.

I had a wonderful day! Did you?

So I had a wonderful day! I went to solo and ensemble and I got a 1, which is like the best thing you could have gotten while taking a class c ensemble. Getting there was the hard part though. I went with my friend kac and her dad was the one driving, he didnt know where he was going so he followed the map the school gave us. Turns out that map is retarded...stupid map. We ended up going 20 miles past the place that we needed to go. So we had to turn around and by the time we got there i had like one minute til i had to play...it was nerve-racking. But all went well. Then of course this stupid retarded girl decided that she was going to leave her house like 2 hours after every one else even though she is in varsity and really should have been there before that. It came back to bite her though. She was late and missed the varsity performance and that made every one laugh cause she got what she deserved. It makes me happy cause she just so happens to b the person that blew off my friend leia for thier science fair project. I was going to spray paint her black for just blowing it off but Jordyn stopped me! I am sitting in a room with a monkey...yes i said a monkey. Envy me...you know you want to. =)
Enough about me. How has your day been?