Life

I cant beleive that it is already 2 months into the new year, i mean im almost done with my first year of highschool. I had originally planned to keep you all posted about how things were going but that never did happen. Im sorry. I do beleive with the turn of another school year I have learned alot more about myself and the people that surround me. Over the last year I have lost more friends than I have gained, but thats ok. I learned that in life things arnt always going to go the way you want them too. Especially in highschool. By the time you graduate you will probably not be friends with the same people that you were the beggining of your freshman year. Its not always a matter of you lost friends due to fights. In some cases there is just nothing you can do. People grow apart, it just means that your paths were only meant to cross for so long. I've also learned that you cant let the small things get to you. If you worry about every little thing somebody says about you, or what people do to you, you are just going to end up spending all of your time upset. Its not worth it. It may feel terrible at the time but you will find people that like you for you. True friends, the ones that wont walk away just because you made a decision that they didnt like or because they heard a rumor about you that wasnt even true. High school is supposed to be the time of your life. There is no reason to worry. Things will get better even if they seem like they never will. Its the time where you are supposed to be shaping yourself as a person. Focus on yourself for awhile. Try to figure out what you want to do in your life. But most of all, have fun. So all in all, highschool has been great. Yes, some of the friends I have lost i do wish i was still friends with. But the loss of them gave me more room for the wonderful friends I have now. I wish them the best in whatever they want to do in life. As I have been pondering all of this I have realized something. Im not here to hate anyone, I dont have the right. I have made more than my fair share of mistakes, it happens. I dont have to live my life for anyone but me. I only have this one shot, so I have to make the most of everything I can.